5/28/09
Felt fast
pineal often. An idea to channel
prana into
blood vessels and clear plaque. I think it is
not cholesterol that is the problem, but buildup
in blood vessels. Combining that with the Yoga
and Health book ideas about pin-pointing
consciousness in body, directing prana, and managing
things. Idea for each breath to follow it to connection
with blood and ask the prana to clear obstructions.
It is a thrilling visualization. Purples and rainbows.
Kind of like laser disc saw blades whirling
along the interior, cleansing the paths.
I think about my color
engineering and how greatly
that failed. I don't have the confidence
in my spiritual strength. Also I'm not sure
it is right to do. Seems I'm always trying
to create a meaningful life that harmonizes with
the whole. Don't want to do something just
to prove it can be done. That is as an exercise.
5/31/09
Good circulatory system video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PgI80Ue-AMo
My morning's
adventure in consciousness still has me
vividly high. Walking along, thought to bring consciousness
in with the breath and extend to whole circulatory
system. Wham in, all red arteries from lungs to
furthest extremities capillaries. Breathe out to
reception of prana and back through heart lungs
out through nose. This was extraordinarily exciting,
energizing, illuminating, wonderful.
I did that for awhile. Then thought about how yoga,
guided meditations, and asanas further pinpoint
parts, adding to greater consciousness and relaxation
by addressing local parts one by one. So I breathed
into my left arm down to the fingertips and out.
Breathed into my right arm. Left leg, right leg.
Then within trunk and up to brain. Then did chakras one through seven, one at a time. I might have
done the glands first and then the chakras. Very
effective. Walking yoga could call it.
When got home, searched the book Yoga and Health for
the basic idea that had inspired bringing consciousness
to cleanse inside of blood vessels. Why limit body
in its production of cholesterol. If it is producing
too much, that is because it is trying to balance
something else that is out of whack. What is that?
{It could be dehydration. See the book Your
Body's Many Cries for Water.} Since I don't know, I'm
sure that fighting the body will only increase
the blockage and force the body to get farther
out of balance. So why not try to solve the problem
directly by asking my mind to feel along the vessels
and if there is plaque buildup causing constriction,
to clean it out. Just thinking about it, seems
that plaque could be a reinforcement of the walls
of the vessels. Helping insure that as they get
older they don't weaken and burst under the pressure.
Consciousness when raised is always good at seeing
the whole picture. The challenge is to keep the
vessels functioning as best as possible.
6/1/09
Didn't get to beach until 7. It was one
of the glorious blessedly beautiful mornings. I started breathing consciously intending
to connect with my body. It wasn't the rush
of high I experienced yesterday. In fact, each
breath seemed almost too fast. Worried that I would
get out of breath at first. Can't remember
exactly what I did. Think I did arm, leg, torso,
that kind of big body areas first. Then did things
like heart, lung, womb, eyeballs, tongue, whatever
came up. Savored the shape of heart echoed in lung
lobes and thought about symmetries and duplicate
patterns some.
Later I started thinking about bones. Blood yes,
and bone too. I was going to breath to every bone.
Started with left leg thigh and worked down, each
toe having five bones. On right worked up from
the foot. When got to the pelvis, realized I did
not know how my legs connected to my spine. Seems
like my torso is floating, compression to legs
buffered and indirect.
Starting with tailbone up to neck, another disconnect.
Did up to skull. Forgot jaw. Collarbones, wings,
ah ribs are connected to spine in back.
Along
in there became aware of a kind of satellite dish
like aura. Red ribs, gold disc fills and blue webbing
between. In the primary colors of my first inner
visions, but all muted as if covered in cloudy amber
jell. Or the reflecting light dims and mutes the
colors. Or maybe it is just transparent enough not
to come in bright colors. Sense of green-goldiness
feeder tubes with the blue mesh. I breathed to
this system although it felt sort of inert.
When going past Blessings
Beach, felt the increased
vibe dimension participating in my breathing.
I still feel a kind of measured elation.
Looked up tumbleweed images and it is not
that. Better draw it. Looks SO familiar.
Vaguely looks like it, except should taper to
the left making more dish shaped, need to distort
it. The little white flowers came to decorate the
spines. Seeming a little more lively. But I breathed
to them. Now meaning, significance, importance
seems to be waning.
6/2/09
Had marvelous meditation walk, getting
right into beach breathing. Differently than before.
Not whole body and not directed. It went to my right
torso, probably the arm area. But was brilliant and
blissful. Continued and maybe went generally to left
too. I did alternate
nostril breathing. Thinking
it was a wholeo pattern (??). Looked around at the
dunes and saw that the crystal sand is here.
Then thought about the 15
chakras learned about yesterday.
There could be three more for me {in addition to
my
12} as the peaks of the paths Ida,
Pingala, and Sushumna (center). Saw
them side by side, like white versions of those decorations
made of crepe paper, comes like a fan, then opens
to cut paper circle, like a 3-D doily. Then was breathing
both ways at once. That is not the lung movement,
but the movement of current. ... wonderful, establishing
connection with farther and farther up. Made of light,
turning both ways themselves. And when I can bring
that knowledge down to any particular part of my
body, just remembered something else, like breathing
to my toes and soles of my feet on the sand.
6/5/09
The kinds of visions were a pulsing radiation of
thick concentric bands, reminding me of that picture
of me in the vibe-painted dress. Called inviteLt. Except
except this was more like a target, with pale yellow
and indigo bands alternating. Yet fuzzy cloud-like.
Could see it as that central disk overhead in the
Sushumna breathing, but in action from some center,
maybe heart. Also overall spiraling both ways reminiscent
of the stained glass helices in the God
Cell in Wholly Developed Individual. Thought that mind wasn't
the main actor here. Processes enjoying this walk,
parts of me I don't know about through mind.
Can't envision or put into words. Passing
thought that maybe I'm not really an artist
anymore. I'm just an arty mediator, a self-absorbed
spectator. Maybe I should accept that Wholeo Dome
was it and I don't have to diddle around.
Interesting slant on me. I know it won't last.
Somehow I feel it is important to get to something.
Haven't reached it yet. And I use those artworks
in my thoughts. If for no one else, I have to do
it for me.
There was a time of land currents. Connecting with
an electrical yet windy aura aspect of earth surface.
Feeling my breathing not separate from that.
6/8/09
Felt energized when got down to the beach. I did
the red and the blue and the twirlers overhead.
Saw a crab, and obviously the tide is
coming in, filling up the tire tracks. I felt like
there were little cages, like icosahedrons (the
model I have) (video of a creature
going down in the sand, blub blub blub). Seems like I saw them
(the cages) tumbling around. ... can't understand.
Like maybe that's what cleans the plaque off. ...
What to do with the plaque? Expanding consciousness.
Bringing the higher chakras down to reinforce the
lower ones. That was a key insight.
Expanded the consciousness to be really 5D,
to icosidodecahedron. 5D brain cells. Question
of what to do with the plaque, ... stuck in the
blood vessels, So tumble them down like grains
of sand, like dream of crystals. Maybe plaque
is supposed to be wisdom crystals. We need to develop
how to use it.
I forgot to mention the thoughts about
the fables and persistent stories in our time of
sci fi and kids programs, about the quest for some
magical object that has been imbued with powers
to be conferred on the person that uses it right,
knows what to do with it. This breathing and plaque
story has all those aspects. Of heroic journey,
avoiding the self-interested enemies of your quest
and finally daring to follow your guidance, getting
mystical help along the way, and saving something
important at the end.
6/9/09
I walked at Santa Clara access on one of those
blue sky, white beach, and turquoise water days.
When breathed in to circulation, thought of expanded
consciousness and crystals. Like feeding these
crystals out into surroundings. When looked to
water saw a dolphin
. Curiously passing by, just
when my vision the deepest. Since that had happened
before at Blessings Beach, it seemed like more
than coincidence. Or it seemed like a marvelous
coincidence worth celebrating.
So I began an exchange with the dolphin. Should
say a dolphin exchange. Breathing in to expanded
consciousness. Forming breath crystals. Exhaling
these in exchange with dolphin. Seems like I was
talking and listening in dolphin language. Feels
like drumming with heart of feeling. It's
located in the hug area. Under neck to under arms,
through chest, even in middle of back. Just the
whole area of wanting to communicate.
6/10/09
I'm a breathing walker or a walking breather.
It seems that breath is my study and creativity.
I did some alternate
nostril. Some red/blue in/out
to body parts. Went to toes and heels and pelvic
crannies and sort of greeted and hung out within
body. Envisioned the expansion
of consciousness geometry. Somehow drawn to
the omlulutet.
Main feature of the day was to breathe in to noint
joint,
that I envision at chakra 1
sort of. Anyway, at the furthest reach of breath.
Could there be breath chakras in addition to glandular
chakras? Are there sort of pop up tets from prototet
that are always there as the triangular matrix?
It's that popping point that seems so mysterious.
Is it just a matter of envisioning? Or is it envisioning
and asking? Or is it bringing materials to bear,
such as free crystallized plaque particles? Seems
that there was a material aspect, which is what
dolphins and creatures gather. That is the tets
are the building blocks of the crystals. Thought
that maybe prana is a transport mechanism. That
it isn't just pure cosmic energy.
The whole morning was like that, like groping my
way in the dark, achieving something but not knowing
the context or having much clarity. Fumbling around.
So I made tets.
When
I walked the spiral (which I couldn't see walking
east, but did when walking back west. See a movie
of the walk) I walked very slowly in. Needed
to tranquilize and go within, like meditating.
The farthest could go was facing west or SW. Looked
down and the same shells there with maybe an addition.
Thought that maybe I could bring a gift stone to
center. When there had a powerful tet thought.
Was it overhead or overall? Seems like I see both
now, but not sure if that's the right memory. With
maybe glowing white struts and an emerald thalo
green core, in the tiny overhead one.
When walking out, walked fast and increasingly
faster. It is counterclockwise going in and clockwise
coming out.
6/12/09
Circulation.
Looked out and saw a dolphin, closer than usual,
going on the same path as I am. Every time I look
out now I don't see him. (It sounds like "em" that
would be a nonsexual way to refer to an individual
other than me. Me in reverse.) At first I had
a kind of high, squeaky greeting. Shrieked wow.
{I remember wondering some about why only see dolphin
once, but sure that need to keep attention inner
on the communication, rather than on outer forms.
Feel exchange, give and take.} Feeling kind of
vague red/blue circulation, heart opening.
Going
to the noint
joint. At my
base, triangular base. My connection to a prototet
(
)
... A tet is zooming straight up. Got caught in
top, looking almost like the old crystal ball in
the NY Times Square New Year's celebration. Tet
zooms out the many openings, distributed radially.
Then the side chakras (13, 14) get some (tets)
and recirculate and bombard back to the central
crystal. So there are some (tets) at original speed
and some at accelerated speed that are spinning
left and right. Wow, feeling of giving.
Could see as left, right, and middle.
Ramp about location of spiral labyrinth. Describing
design of a tet shrine {SW, whitewashed wall,
Alys Beach type buildings} with triangular base
two points in front, one in back Saw a cross
on top which became a movie of all the different
symbols. Then saw that from the dolphin's point
of view and how it fits them, two tail fins side
to side and the back fin the third strut. Ground
doesn't mean anything for dolphins.
What's that
triple spiral, a tetrahelix.
Seems like any time see that pattern, can see
that structure around it.
{walking spiral} tmpahedron? ... spinning
opposite way from my walk. The slower I go, the
faster it goes.
As I walked away from the spiral, one had
formed on my left, coming out from the center,
the two kind of keeping me company. I remember
Leo's
death dropping tets and that the ground
work especially might be connected to that.
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