Have you a spirit animal? http://www.geocities.com/~animalspirits/index1.html is a place to meet many spirit animals. I suggest that you choose one. Become that animal. Then look at your color healing. The order of runecasting is: journey (evolutionary being), defense (spine), harvest, and separation (prayer). (Refer to the chart at http://www.wholeo.net/Color/healing/colorRune.html#sign for the signs and the words.)

Growth of your awareness is a heartfelt adventure of prayer and gathering spinal messages from your dark unconscious aspects. Listen to the spirit animal energy whirled out from those aspects. It is up to you to take the next step. Only you can make the decision to face parts of yourself that you might prefer to ignore. Moving among the colors of this healing, stop at each change and write down or say what comes to mind. A story might emerge. Stay with each feeling long enough to acknowledge it. Information is available when you open.