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I had a difficult dream. There are some battle lines where the government has instructed us to not only fight an illegal battle, but to paste logos on the opposing forces helmets or equipment, essentially claiming them for our side. I'm experiencing what it is to live out the concept of resistance to what we know is wrong. First is to understand what is wrong and take responsibility for making decisions that are right, against the power over us. There are so many parts of being human that make that hard. Second is to actually do it, that is act on what is right. In the case of this dream, we have done some logo pasting and have to reverse it.

When waking up, I kept seeing how our current US government is affecting all of us. How my psyche in our connectedness is experiencing and supporting the resistance of those actually on the front lines, the confrontations, losing their jobs, being publicly humiliated, living the results that will be our history.

Most important is the thought train about the essential Women's Kundalini. I eliminated mrunes and glyphs which I think are riding on the kundalini. The test is this. Have I had the WK without mrunes and munes and glyphs? Yes. The drops are another question. And the order of discovery or presentation is another. I know I discovered the cap of drops first. But is that true for everyone? Is there anything primary about that? I guess I cling to that inquiry because the flow seems to be between the star overhead and the drops underfoot. The helmet seems to be the transducer between the cone and the drop flow in the body, the EIEnors. Straighten the ribs and I have a cone. Move the drops from the rib tips and I have the streaming.

Wow I think I've got it. The helmet is an antenna and it does have to be projected from within. It is an aura phenomenon. It might be as basic as wave/particle nature. The ribs like wave. The particles like drops.

Suddenly reminded of being in that huge wharf building in San Francisco. My sister was doing Indian Studies at Sonoma State and found out about events in the San Francisco Bay Area. One was the Hare Krishna parade with the elder from India. This one on a pier was Tibetan Buddhist. Was it Dalai Lama? Most memorable for me was something I think done with long trumpets, where a single breath had dual notes. Now I know that a human can sing that way.

To restate, although it must be built from within, I think there's the platonic form, the idea, that is not created by us. A metaphore for visualizing and using it, would be to spray with particles of insulation on an invisible field to reveal the ribs and drops as they are coated. The idea is fed and substantiated by our attention.

A question might be whether breathing exercises from traditional kundalini can be used with Woman's Kundalini. My answer is no because I can't imagine how one could do it fast. Not a prohibitive response but an "if so, how?"


Looking at the wholeopens on the pentagons in my EIEnor model. Thinking wow, those arms represent vibe transmission, could they actually be coming from the info storage blocks. But no I think the pents are the synergizers. What do they really do?

Working on a WK movie. OK, I don't think brain cell expansion is part of WK, in the essential narrow sense. There are many pre-conditions and associated practices and verities but WK is an energy streaming practice and should be delineated clearly. Also, I'll never be over my interest in modeling expansion of consciousness. It is the essence of my life arrow of time; what came out of the glass dome in 1975 and onward. Thanks for deciding that and abandoning it for the time being.

The ruddy colors of AE18 overlaid with the blue haze, the blue light being of meditative visioningNow how about the 1073 breathing? No, it a is variation. Can not possibly be required. Visions are so sneakily wonderful. Suddenly aware of my closed eye vision near where I was resting my head on hand. It was the ruddy colors of AE18 overlaid with the blue haze, the blue light being of visionary meditation or meditative visioning or whatever that blue light is I see so frequently. That seems to show the way. I had been thinking of the light cone, then overlapping light cones, which reminded me of the Marcia Woodby glass window I made for Ana's room.

Start over. We've got a dome hat, drops, cone, streaming with breathing, drops below, activating brain cells, streaming up. Then there were drops up the cone to the sparkle star. That should be one movie. Plunk. Then can do movies associated, based on the practice.


So sick of Facebook trivia that, as Caroling (instead of Wholeo), I posted my brain cell movie to stimulate some depth. Got the response I liked from a very few people.

Now looking at WK. Slight problem with the kundalini cap in that it seems to have a gradual development rather than just appearing in space. Later it looks like the cone is bending in space to form the cap. The wOs communication with the drop needs to be connected with the overall view. How do the rings that come from the brain cell go up the cone? I love reading the journal entries.

Anyway, there is so much video work to do that I guess my first task is to figure out if WK guidance can be discrete from using WK. Like I got the practice and structure of it. With that in mind, the glyphs and stuff coming down the cone on 2-5 must be using WK. Not sure about the green coil. 2-8 blows mind. I can't tell if it is a different way of seeing the time cones or not. Original cone is wide point up narrowing. In time cone, the second cone rises from the point star top of the bottom and widens up to the disc of original mind.

Boy am I struggling with guidance. I'm reading blog. Have found one movie to work on. Which is the overall wOs with TLM lights written on 3-18. Would it be over all the body? Or could it be the starlight center? Anyway TLM lights are important. Could do the octhat. Which would change the position of the overall TLM, which is not a TLM, it is one tet. What is bugging me at the moment is that I've got Woman's Kundalini bound up with expanded consciousness according to my vision.

Suddenly seeing a movie where the drops going down are navigating the twists and turns of the paths incoming sensations, the edges of a bank of storage blocks. As the breathing flow comes up and out, the light muscles flicker among the synergizing brain cells. That is really a committment to EIEnor in WK association. Beautiful. But is it necessary? It is an elucidation. I feel like I'm escaping or eluding my main task.


On walk I hugged my tree, WindDancer. I tuned in with lizard instruction {that had gotten at Santa Clara ramp} double cone. Breathed in down to my feet. Breathed out to a point and up out that really short coil. Was out and looking at the end disc from the side. Brought memory of the original face {Zen}. Breathed {in} down. Hugged the tree. Rough bark.

Noticed the parts it had grown but outgrown that were dead branches hanging down. I realized I have tough bark to fend off what I don't want. I have dead branches of things that aren't going anywhere but are still hanging around. I identified with that growing force. It was almost like the tree needed to strengthen the side I was leaning on to accomodate my weight. I was grateful for that and hoped it was not too hard for it to do. It just was not used to it. I can strengthen the sides where I'm stressed.

Then we . together went up. breathing out. I saw a trite inner vision of this sun coming over the edge of clouds, the way we always picture the light. I thought how I'm just seeing {(within the bounds of my culture) what my culture tells me to see}. But that sun is not what I'm really breathing to. It was more like how my camera, at first a glare, when zoomed in and pointed right at light, such as a full moon, focuses and turns down the exposure. Now I see the disc of original mind. I kept going until it didn't seem like light. Hawking can say there's no boundary. But there are places you can go that seem like beyond the big bang in touch with her feminine ray vibes. Which took me back to the Old Age Retreat vision of feminine light vibes.


The geometry of evolving mind. I have three streams going here. Mystical camping WK emerged and continued through AE. Took place in Carolyoga. Now I can't say views of the mind is a practice. It is geometry. This just replaces or builds on the movie Five cells expand to EIEnor. It is another look at it and how it works.

This morning the five brain cells appeared organized like a pyramid hat, the four corners around the level of my ears. The peak above my head is the fifth and leading brain cell. This arrangement is the basic framework of evolution. Co-evolution. Can picture this when focusing on evolving. When writing this, became aware that it is not a pyramid, it is the top of an octahedron, the inner shape. The bottom is like the anti- structures written about by Hawking. Maybe. I remember Pirsig somewhere made an assertion. Followed in the next sentence by "Maybe". Which is a clue as to several unwritten paragraphs of the surrounding aura of the assertion that modifies it and leads to more. It means that the preceding statement is the next best hope for a true stepping stone on the path of truth. Stay tuned.

Need to remember that an Egyptian pyramid is not equilateral as is an octahedron. Also I'm pleased that this is in alignment with the Rainbow Bridge visualization of the octahedron. I could do a modification of those images. Wow, the Google search brings up images. How fantastic. The noosphereforum page I link to is still there, so attractive and unifying of directions. However, ultimately is that obfuscating calendar of the lawoftime. The main page is black, code is truncated. Same reaction to the Facebook page.

Interesting that the first image Google shows in the search on wholeo.net for "octahedron" goes to haptihedron with an explanation that is key, KEY!, to the octahedron around head. Octhat. The octahedron is inside the double tetrahedron of the Light Muscle. See the original vision given by Amerindian guides and continued in the geometry section.

Wow. To make a page for Octhat, have to picture that octahedron as basis for expanding. I am so excited. I wonder if I can use the ones I use in the movie. The reason I'm so enlightened excited is that this octahedron within the TLM is the engine, the actor, the instigator, the director, the controller, the source, the basis for all this inquiry. Need to find Bucky Fuller's additions.

First thought was that I could rearrange the cubes around the head in the movie at the end. That would lead to the next movie. But I really should redo this one. It could be so much better. Dilemma back to Laura Grenyo at Borland's criticism of me in 1992. I share too soon when user does not have tools or concepts to understand my presentation. Story of my life. My rebuttal is that it has taken my whole life to get here. In fact, should I now remain silent?

Stella octangula is another way of saying Stellated octahedron. !!!!!!!!


Leonardo da Vinci's version. This is how I see the top of the head and the placement of the five cubes. Hmm, this also resolves the conundrum of maybe 6 cubes. A sixth would complete the inner octahedron. The sixth could be the record keeper. http://www.matematicasvisuales.com/english/html/history/leonardo/stellatedoctahedron.html

In geometry, a octahedral prism is a convex uniform 4-polytope this is from: https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Octahedral_prism.

From Leonardo's time, these shapes were thought to be related to the elements: the Cube to earth, Tetrahedron to fire, Octahedron to air, Icosahedron to water and Dodecahedron to heavenly ether.

At 9am so spaced out I don't know if I'm coming or going. It will be hard to picture the four corners of the top of the octahedron straight on as it would be for the face in this movie.


Walked a mile at Santa Clara ramp reading Hawking. Wow. At one point an anole, that I see as a lizard, little, green, saw me on the railing and took off going down. When I zagged the zig to the point below, I looked for it. Saw it going down where it was about to disappear back and under the supports. I talked to it, saying "hello, so glad to see you". It immediately turned around, climbed up a foot or so and sat on top of a beam pointing at and looking right up at me. I could not have felt more welcome. We were communing. It was about 3' away.

Breathing with lizard was a double cone. Of course that could have come from the book, A Brief History of Time, since there were many pix of light cones. But at first it was the WK cone breathing in to wide circle. The depth and breadth of the circle went to ground (earth) and to deeps of lizard. Then carrying liz messages, ground, mine, it breathed out to the WK cone tip star. I don't know how many cycles, if any, there were with a single cone but mostly this breathing came to the star point and went on to however far and wide out a circle it could go, which wasn't defined as infinite or finite but had a breathing/consciousness limit or turn around for breathing in.

I remained hanging over the railing for awhile bliss breathing with liz. I did some more talking. That must have been before breathing awareness. As I continued my walk I kept doing the breathing. On succeeding zigzags up and down the ramp I lost track of liz and could not even find the configuration of ramp supports where I remembered it being. Very moved by this contact.

Meanwhile a whole new advancement popped into mind with respect to the geometry of expanding mind. What about emotions? What if the EIEnor is a preliminary stage of the EIE, like the cube storage block is within the sphere of the emotions? Color healings could be dealing with the emotions. The pentagons could relate to the emotions. Some ideas have the feature that once they have come to mind, there is no return.

What I'm not sure about is if all the missing link evolution has any place here. Could it be the corpus callosum kind of linking of the storage blocks and the emotions? Ideas that are questions could be investigated further.


Checking in on the endangered species of lichens that I call perfs, I really only found two plants that were big among the dominant Cladonia leporina. Most everything looks unhealthy. Enjoyed it though. It is such a beautiful place if I just ignore the cars. Thought about just communing with the lichen rather than looking at their physical state.


Thinking of 1073 or 1 0 7 3 as a great sequence. Must try breathing more.

Breathing coil for cleansing and energizing. 1. Visually trace the spiral starting at the top as you breathe in, following the turns all the way down and in to your diaphragm. 0. Turn around and twirl your way up as you breathe all the way up to the top and out. 7. To the count of seven, breathe in one on your way down and then way, way out on your way up, slowly watching the winding path. 3. To the count of three, gently breathe down in and finally up all out. Repeat this pattern.

Added this to the visionart AE18 page. Now see that each number has it's own color. I could do a movie with the right timing and colors. Eventually whole WK. Yes I think this will be integrated into the final movie.


Went to the opening of the new Eastern Lake Campground 2 where I met the foresters who work in and manage our forest. The supervisor is in charge of seven counties. I climbed the old fire watch tower, which I've wanted to do since I first saw it in 2002. It is locked and requires a safety briefing, permission, and a forestry personnel guide. Afterwards I made a reservation to camp for two days celebrating the Follow Equinox in September.


My meditation was stellar. At first aware of hurting back and slowly raised up. Accepted pain of bra. Intensity. Aware of loving cloud of ring of people. Mainly irrepressible, non-visual that at the same time was supremely beautiful, not dark, not just the extreme joy of being, the creative, evolutionary adventure. Non-objective celebration of all my cells all in my realm with no boundaries. So many things people look for in the outside world are metaphors of what is within. Or is it the reverse? The thoughts are concerns that I'm going to exceed some level of appreciating, the witness explodes, is burnt out, is indulging. Has to be willing to let go into this trip.


Green Geeks, the web host for wholeo.net is moving the site to an improved server. As far as I know the migration was successful.


Tuning into the core movement around the galaxy. I wonder if it is faster than our spin around our earth axis daily. Is speed that important? What I'm tuning into is inexorable. Even though we might hit a point in time in space where we are centered on the direction of sun's path, we are carried or we travel on that path even though we spin daily and spin around the sun, there still is that direction. I guess everything is going at the same speed.


Funny thoughts in kitchen. Imagining that a doctor asks what I weigh. I'll say 155 as I always do. Somehow I think I might have lost a little, eating less carbs. Even though I eat too much. She'll say, why not weigh yourself? I'll say, I can't waste the time. This feeling of intensity of my purpose seems to always be with me.

Walking back to work, it vanishes and I feel incredulous as to why, what difference would it, does it, could it make? Everything seems like a farce. The doctor must see I'm delusional. As I prepare to sit down I remember the rationale. I've been given so much during my life. Things have been so easy, so meaningful. Seems I must give back. Why stop now? I haven't lost faith in the journey, the decisions, the goals for myself.

It is that in so many ways, I keep seeing myself as others do. Hardly anyone is into evolution. How can they understand what I'm saying? For example, the solstices and equinoxes seem to me so gigantic in meaning. Easter seems so trivial. I don't share the nostalgia, the sugar, the family ties, the religion, the icons that binds them to it. Yet they must have the same emptiness looking at my pursuits. It always seemed that there was a context. Now I look around me and it is transparent, not there for those around me. I feel like up up and out on some pinnacle, trajectory and even if I spun a work of art, no one would see it.

But it still seems worth it.


Thinking about an intro movie to wholeo.net that is different from the previous, doesn't try to be a variety show, a smörgåsbord. It takes the development of consciousness structure from the start to the present, showing how my mediums evolved, how the core ideas are evolving, how this is a lifework that is not a certain style, but an intuitive inquiry. The culmination is Woman's Kundalini streaming consciousness structures up in body to hood. This actually can be a model, inspiring people's brains to do it. It also should be inspiring, encouraging, uplifting to see how far it has come.


I think the 7 in the AE18 meditation vision is to breathe all the way out and hold. When completely evacuated there is more contact with the beyond. Filled with spirit, not air. And when all the way out, the breathed in air/prana is pushed farther in, to blood and circulation. Not seeing the breathing as in and out reversal. See it as in and completely in, continuously opening. True, I am expelling the part of air I don't need but at the same time I am more completely and deeply absorbing and honoring what was taken in. I wonder if this hold is part of Woman's Kundalini, adding to the benefits of the fast kind of breathing in the aerobic traditional Kundalini.


Getting some kind of information that I'm grounded over there in the campground better than anyplace close to home. The information is that I should scan over those colors I've got until I find actually one color that is the frequency I should be talking on. Working on license plate. Seemed to have gotten the overall colors right. Suddenly fixed on a portion that felt like it had the focus color. Zoomed in to pixel level. At first felt arbitrary. After about 3 tries I fixed on this: #f75200 and used it for the background of the visionwork.

Loved the numbers. f oh no I always forget if f is white or black. 2 my original favorite. 5 my evolutionary favorite. 7 seemingly the great divisor, multiplier. Remember the life stages, 0 7 14 21 28 35 42 49 56 63 70 77 84 91 98 105 are big milestones. 0 conceived, 7 school, 14 puberty, 21 (1955) Europe, art choice and grad school, 28 (1962) NY, 35 Wholeo, 42 Monte Rio expansion, 49 (1983) Peru and Silicon Valley, 56 (1990) increasingly software-oriented and lost mom and son, 63 (1997) New Zealand and retired web artist, 70 2004 Wholeo Dome to The Farm, 77 (2011) 2012 galactic, 84 (2019) TBD.


At first wakeup before dawn, I needed my headlamp to get up and go out. Overjoyed to find no bugs. I walked back and forth to the lake, at first seeing a rosy glow in the east over the water and wetlands. Waking up with nature outdoors is for me, divine.

Visionary thoughts from three days of camping are here on the AE camping page.


Hips and knees hurt all night. All set to complain about what I've condemned myself to do, instead I feel inner acceleration and elation. The heavy wind forecast is gone but I now have the rainfly off the tent so I can see the sky and the forest all around. Just looked up and saw blue sky with a dabbling of a pattern of small puffs of clouds. Where before and after a few seconds was bland gray. CHANGE. Now seeing subtle changes in gray. Sort of inner glowing soft glimmers. Like what's in me. Marginally conscious.

Toward the lake it feels green like New Zealand. To the forest like Minnesota north woods. I like seeing peeks of sky on the horizon that I know is over the Gulf. Seeing wind in tree tops. Different budding growth tips of all the plants. Watching sunlight coming and going, modulated by waving branches in the wind. Soft groups of misty clouds in a completely different wind flow going NW to SE at a different rate to the patchy clouds going east. Small things seen when heading around the galaxy.

After meditating for 30 minutes during the peak of the equinox, with sunlight at my back, I notice that the guardian tree I chose is leaning in the direction we're heading. Wonderful big yellow butterflies flitting about the forest. Some cloud cover keeping the temperature mild. In the afternoon I hiked singing, "Country road take me home," .... In the evening prepared for clear star-studded sky and cold temperature drop. By morning I had on all my clothes, down jacket, tights, rain pants, headband and gloves. Still, I could not get warm enough.

Visionary thoughts from three days of camping are here on the AE camping page.


Weather forecast was for rain and thunderstorms starting before noon and continuing all afternoon. Legally, campground check-in is at 3PM but I feared it would be difficult to set up in the rain and everything would be wet. I loaded the car at 9AM. Slight drizzle started as I drove away. At the campground, people were eating at the table with tent up on #2, the site I rented for two nights. I explained that I was just going to put my tent up, so it would be ready before the rain and after they left. Raindrops were increasing as I put it up on another site. To my surprise the rainfly was not in the bag. I draped the tent top with tarps and drove home. I got the missing pieces just as the storm was in full force. I could hardly see to drive through heavy traffic on the way back. Site #2 was vacant but my tent floor was swamped. I poured it out, stretched the rain fly on and dragged the light framed tent to my site. By this time the rain stopped. I mopped up the tent floor and hoped it would dry out. Not knowing when rain might start up again, I put up my old backpacking tent and filled it with camping supplies. The inflated mattress felt good as I leaned back in a stadium chair for lunch and journaling.

The rain never resumed. In late afternoon I transferred all to my main tent. See the AE18 camping page for visionary comments.


Last night watching a program on Steven Hawking (who just died), I learned that it is hard to spot little dark planets circling blazing bright suns. But it is the change between when the planet is in front of the sun, compared to when it is not in front, that is seen. I thought of this toward the end of my walk. Was thinking what would "they" see of me, of us. So if my brain cells, my consciousness cells, my wOss are in action, they would go like this. Each cell or unit of consciousness has the framework or the capability of structuring or hosting 5D. When one EIEnor is formed from 5 BC cubes, blocks, the squares fly out or explode into positions. Note this is about how to visualize what's happening. I'm not proposing that it actually has to be structured this way. Also the TLMs fly apart and explode into positions. But the TLMs are the most active changers. Vibrating fast, I said faster than the speed of light. So as long as a particular brain cell is associated with this group of five, the square sides remain expanded, do not change position. Actually not sure if the vibes or how the vibes and storage works. But it seems clear that the TLMs are the most dynamic parts.

So (when I say So, I think I mean to gather the thoughts and proceed anew) if some far awareness were looking for us or were to become aware of me, maybe this lineup with the sun and the direction would be a significant time to monitor change. And the change would be the sparkling TLM action.

So my walk was profound and again I'm high as a kite. I'm high as Hawking probing the depth of space and physics and being a consciousness in a wrecked body. Facebook reminded me of this post: Caroling/season/2015/y2015advanceEquinox.htm where the new moon was right on AE instead of 4 days before as it is now.

Yesterday I got the feeling that there was a consciousness that's ahead of earth on the sun's galactic orbit. That we contact (or intend to contact) at this time. So that's what I'm trying to do on this walk. It is an AE walk. Visualizing these relationships in space is perhaps the hardest and the most fallible of my efforts. Somehow I'm think angles are very important. On way back, with the sun at my back, I looked ahead towards this being.

Maybe I can show how I connect to this consciousness. I focused on that guy that was walking ahead of me ( to show how I would reach out and kind of act like a filter). Immediately comes into my mind kind of like a bunch of bubbles. Reminiscent of the zome arrangement that Steve Baer did. But made out of EIEnors, wOs, wholeOOspheres. Then the TLMs (tetrahedronal light muscles) are in there. I saw them pulsing from the original cube out to the wOs. I've never seen that before. How does this relate to a 4/5D tesseract? Could I start with flatland, and build up? No. What if I started with the intelligence I'm headed towards and work back?

Also visualized at one point an overall brain cell. I would have have tets reeling out from the periphery of a sphere that's around my body? I'm thinking in 3D. I'll have to think in 4D. Then I remembered Woman's Kundalini had these little wOs with every cell of consciousness. I'm kind of made up of myriad wOs. If I focus on the expansion of the TLMs I become illuminated in some way that shows my outline. And movement. Blinking of lights. Movement of consciousness that's not necessarily cellular light. But if there is a discernible change, then technology can be developed to track it. I don't know about the cube sides. Seems like they'd come out and go bump. And then ... ya, it's not just one. Cubes change, one or four might change. As long it's there in that framework and the flashing, the faster change is the TLMs. I wonder if I could ever ever make a video of that.

All my thought was about seeing myself and sending. What about receiving?


I have been elated ever since waking up. It is a couple of hours to the new moon at 8:11. New moon steeped in sunlight. Hiked to campsite and felt so comfortable that I didn't want to leave. Photos of Guardian trees of the camp site.


I'm reading Factoring Humanity by Robert J. Sawyer. Notes: Like the Wholeo symbol, the concave opposing spheres. Like my vision of storage block arrangement, the overmind is made of hexagons, one for each person. Mine had been my own mind, brain cells. New word: neckering which was when a pattern flipped to seeing it represent a different configuration. Derived from a necker diagram of the two cubes' outlines. Another new word hyperscope: a way to see in more dimensions, beyond normal seeing. Collective unconscious visible in 4D, what was always, is always but can't be seen in 3D. Called it a fistula in hyperspace. What is an autonomic self? She was in psychospace. 4D is fourspace. And Liz sends me a picture by Hans of factoring that is a dome shape.


Remembering climbing and camping at Mt. Shasta in 1975. I had read John Muir's account of his climb (here it is: https://vault.sierraclub.org/john_muir_exhibit/writings/snow_storm_on_mount_shasta.aspx). I remembered reading that he ate only hardtack out of his pocket. So I brought only crackers I had made from sunflower seeds. Today I'm making them from sprouted seeds to take camping on my Advance Equinox 2018 event.


Rhombicosidodecahedron: https://www.mathsisfun.com/geometry/polyhedron-models.html?m=Rhombicosidodecahedron has rotating interactive model of glass so can see it from any position and get an image of it.

Searched web for hours for the geometric folding model Meg had in the movie A Wrinkle in Time. Can not find it or even a reference to it. I had been awake with a heightened body sensation of intensity and feeling I could explore. I noted that an origami double star flexicube was of interest. Searching on "tesseract" and "hypercube". Got the book by Sawyer to help understand the tessering concept.

I feel this intensity is calling me somewhere. I really should think more about the tesseract being the same as 5 brain cells, except it is 8 cubes when unfolded from 4/5D to 3D.


Previous I got a new mudra like Woman's Kundalini but a different heart. That is like shekina but the heart and downward triangle instead of upward are made with little fingers, not center two fingers. Palms facing inward. Center two fingers are interlaced, lying flat, straight bent from knuckles. Index fingers meeting with pads facing, at point above. Forms an upward pointing triangle above center fingers. Thumbs meeting with pads together below. Behind, the little fingers are curled down with facing nails. Forms a downward pointing triangle below fingers.

I'm working on WK star center connection and the breathing flow.


PreviousGazing at the star center graphic, easy to imagine it morphing to star shape. But what function? Seems via the TLMs in the brain cell. Which brings to mind the movie of that in EIE. Sometimes these things go so easily. Found the image or movie I was thinking of. Enlarged it. Did movie with QT.

Of course that EIEnor.htm this shows the faces of the TLM expanding to the triangles in EIEnor. But that doesn't engage the content, the action which I don't think I've ever visualized differently than for EIE. So I think I can use this animation which gives a feel for rotating tetrahedrons. Could even snap and superimposed frames to get a visual for a still. Now for my stardrop center meld. Perfect graphic is in the light-emitting layer of the jeweled spin net. Do this as a graphic. I see the star sliding down the cone as it fades, everything centering as expanded. More. Next


PreviousThere's something about doing Woman's Kundalini with the drops and the star (stardrop) that activates the 5D brain cells. The star center that I connected with at the Old Age Retreat 2016 is not local, even though I've experienced it at the tan t'ien, hara, gut, plexus, body center. I don't have to experience WK as a body image. I can see the star enlarging and moving down to connect at the belly. Just sort of collapsing everything. And you could see...What I can't quite see is how these these OAR16 center, just kind of a cloudburst. Kind of connects with the drops doesn't it? How it transitions to star glitter stuff. It's not expanded to the five-point star which helps connect to the brain cells. More. Next


Being with Nancy, I'm so aware of how loosely I operate. Constantly making little errors. That must be basic to our half-century attraction. Nancy, even in her demented state, catches lots of them. It seems like she operates tightly, every thought to the straight and narrow. I'm not sure if my sloppiness is a creative bonus or if she feels super useful and needed for keeping us on track. I remember some years when it made me super irritated. I felt nit-picked, criticized, attacked, and needlessly unappreciated for where my mind was at. I made snide comments like, "what would I do if I didn't have you to correct me." They were an attempt to accept but were actually sarcastic. Maybe we're more balanced now that there is a lot she can't control and doesn't know.


Previous Woman's Kundalini streamingI channeled Woman's Kundalini streaming down to feet drops and left it there for walking communication.

Met a cloudless sulphur butterfly. Talking with feet. The butterfly moved from the side to ahead of me. Gist seemed to be marking where alligator path was.

I talked in foot language to the butterfly. I found if I bend my knees, I press the feet down harder. I talked from outer toe to inner toe. Left and right for wholeo. Pressed on my heel for something. I did a cycle of the cone.

On the way back I remembered to draw the flow focus back up again. At star sparkles they became infinitesimal and connected holigraphically with everywhere. The communication was not on/off, but was intensification, focus.

Star sparkles. Cone. Drops. To drops underfoot. More. Next


Previous Now to speak of my feet. Doing yoga last night I became increasingly aware of the bottoms of my feet. They feel like a leather pad has developed. I have been noticing the sensation of stiffness in the soles for some days. It came to an intensity of focus. Could I be evolving shoes as feet bottoms? There was a word starting with evolv- that was like revolutionary. Yes, evolutionary, not as adjective, but as noun. I am an evolutionary. That went on for awhile during several yoga poses, accepting a change in feet.

At one point it changed. Like sand streaming through the small opening an hour glass when you flip it over. Irresistibly I became aware of the drops in the WK, woman's kundalini. Talk drops. Talk feet. These soles are not for walking; they are for talking. With feet in air as in shoulder stand and back exercises with feet up, they began a dance of communication, expression. Not language, which is of the tongue. Archuage, seems to stem from the foot arch. Pedage? Parts that move are all the toes, the balls, the arches, and the heels. 16 parts. Hexadecimal? No something different in the relationship of angles of these parts, left and right. Frequency of taps. Of course it involves the whole body, the torso, hips but especially the legs. I wonder if someday we'll write on screens with our feet. Play drums as well as talk. Then it will be virtual, with headsets and feeting (analog of speaking) in gestures.

It feels like parts of me, latent abilities, sensors, flexors, knowers are arroused and beginning to sprout like seeds, taking root in new evolutionary manifestation. Bottom up, not top down. More. Next


Have to love my mind. Feeling the general flow of the visions in wholeo then flowing into yoga and trying to see the process of visions with respect to my body. Thinking how much that Monte Rio direction flows into this new concretion. Suddenly a path like lake2lake is ocean2ocean. sea2sea. see2see. Reinforces the idea of sometime, another trip from Atlantic to Pacific. Water walker east and west. North and south.

Todo: investigate wired articles on yahoo. I'm feeling that WIRED is more in my thought path than Facebook. I'm getting really tired of dogs and sunsets. My mind is so fragmenting. It is the growth, continual growth. Thinking about the trees and how plants never stop growing. Humans do not continue physically but inwardly in experience.


Ted Pirsig emailed that "We are scattering Bob's ashes off the Kona coast at 11AM local time". I figured 4 hour time difference so it would be 3 here. At 2 I remembered. But not again until 4:24. Tuned in, bone to bone, knowing we would always be tuned in. Floated out a bit like that. Then inferred or added info of the woman's kundalini process (visionary information currently channeling). Ascending into star images and a flurry floatation of star array starray happened for a bit.

I should explain that when I got my son's ashes, I was dumbfounded to feel the hard, gritty substance was like pulverized bone. It was not like soft, flimsy wood ashes.


Previous Looking at my Woman's Kundalini art, thinking need to have animation from feet to star, including changing the figure to the 5fold brain cells wOs. and drops going up. Visions. I feel the characters and runes streaming down the cone from the star transferred from helmet down body to pool below. That connects with grounding currents the way male kundalini connects with sky currents. I was breathing in with this flow. On breathe out the drops flow up and there aren't channels it is contacting every tiny entity in my manifested body and probably psychic aspects. Is more like twinking stars. Waves rising to cone. Not sure if helmet is involved and the drops stream up the cone ribs to star.

Thought a lot about Five-fold brain cells. Could they fill allspace? If they form a lattice of expanded cubes, what is between? Strangely enough, when 5cells congregate they transform into color that I can't see so it looks black. Black hole power. But this is surrounded by white.

Everyone breathes at a different rate so how can this movie work since it must have a fixed rate? It might be that you play the breathe in movie then click it on hold. Then do the same with the breathe out movie. Facebook works as a loop but Vimeo and YouTube don't. More. Next


Previous Finding a disconnect between the reservoir of drops underfoot and the cone development overhead. Visualizing feet in pearl drops energizes Kundalini to electrify body connecting with cone action. More. Next


Mup yeow. Is what I say when I'm up for yet another adventure in life on earth chez moi. Have I mentioned my new practice of not only breathing with awareness and depth, but encouraging all the vessels in my circulatory system to expand and be openly happy? As much a part of breathing as the nose and lungs. And mind. I did think about plaque, not wanting the expansion to flake off chips that could cause a stroke. Wanting plaque to serve it's purpose of strengthening vessel walls. So be flexible. Somehow this awareness of blood passage and tasks and channeling is strangely elating.

Previous My mind has an image of medieval women in paintings wearing a tall conical hat with veil draped from it. Web says these were copied by artistocrat women from Mongolian warrior women (Mongol warrior queens) who were equal with men. Called hennin. Is this related to Woman's Kundalini? The question is not "is", but how. More. Next


Pouring a glass of water. Drinking it in partnership for our day. Wondering if that is a creative act. Is that how consciousness forms vehicles for communication? The basis is that water takes part in forming us and life as we know it. I need water to live. So in order to become more conscious and communicate better, I recognize the part that joins me as a partner. That entity in the glass is not separate, as I am needing stuff too. But at that moment of dedication and acknowledgement we are two beings of consciousness. We synergize. Evolving forms.

I wonder about crazy ideas. Are they worth pondering? Also, is it worth looking up solstice and equinox times? I reserved a camping spot in my nearby forest for the Advance equinox.


Previous Suddenly seeing the plant winding down the cone as possibly the spiral energy feminine. Like the energy of galaxies and growth. Yes!!! Like the cycles of time. Like our paths in space. Spirals of labyrinths. Not the animal snake. Male centered psyche sees feminine as animal. Sure it is from that perspective. But more basic, cornucopia, evolution, DNA.

This came when wondering if the drops array is truly the right background (as in this video). Conecoil. CoilCone. Somehow thinking I must establish or find a spiral path to walk to celebrate my discovery. I suppose it should be on blessings beach. Or it could be under the power lines. I was wishing there would be one in the forest. Not a labyrinth essentially.

Suddenly remembering the V energy. Hmm. Shekina is the mudra. Do it in three stages. The COB prayer position. The original fingers which is a v. Morph to Shekina. I'm fireworks. I am so excited. Boom.

I keep seeing Venus on the half shell painting as the theme of the announcement vision. She's riding along on top of my car. You have to be a Wholeo Head to get it. Discovering Woman's Kundalini. Should it be feminine? I always associate that with alternative, secondary.

Discovered my memory of Venus is more like Botticelli's primavera, which name I had associated with Venus. Flora is the face I envisioned, except mine had blue sky behind and more trailing flowers such as come from the mouth of Chloris. I do not see a spiral.

From Chloris' name the colour may be guessed to have been green – the Greek word for green is khloros, the root of words like chlorophyll. 

Walking in the forest, talking to head-mounted camera to record visionary thoughts. Today is the day when I realized Women's Kundalini was the vision I had in my car. Or whenever it was, that I recorded in my car. The spiral. That's it. Coil is not Coiled up for me. It's coming both ways down the cone of connection. So I'm calling it. Cone coil. Did you hear that? I wrote all that in the journal. So it is not lost if I can't hear myself talk. (so I mumble) Pay attention to the omens. trees down. The spiral aspect of it is my main fascination of the day. There doesn't seem to be any celebration of spirals near me.

Twirling, tw... Wow, i'm seeing Funicula's, kind of twistors coming down, turning clockwise, coming down in a point. To my upper right. Do I have to place those in my cone. I did it. There certainly is an anti-cone energy that I've been tuning into since the galactic beam. .. to be installed? Oops, I see I'm walking into a ... there are a lot of them along this path. Well maybe everywhere but I'm walking towards this floating sea of those little vortices. Like jellyfish. About the height of those blazes on the tree. Speaking to me? I think like cosmic juices, but on a grander scale xx. I guess this is what the male, the Man's Kundalini rose up to meet But I seem to have a direct tap.

Downed tree. Here we go under the arch of cones. The vortices have sort of a cone in there too don't they? Swelling out and coming to a point. Did you hear that? Vortices have a cone. Pine cone!! Cone coil. They say that's what pineal is based on. Pine cone pineal has a spiral coil energy gathering. I send out sort of reverse vortice though. I thought the cone was a receptor. See a unicorn. Corn horn. I guess. Today it seems like a singer.

I do the mudra {Shekina}.. Primavera Flora is the face of Woman's Kundalini. New sprigs and sprouts. New coiling. What's that memory from? Sprouts that come up (video of finger coiling up CCS) with a little bud on the top. Vines I guess. Complaining about my energy. Vortices have green leaves out of the top. I can see them going counterclockwise too. Advancing cw. Growing ccw. Happy Woman's Kundalini Day. When get to the meadow, I say, I was thinking we could do spirals here.

Vortices hovering overhead. Vortices can't tell people and plants apart. We're so similar. Do I need to tell them about that? Or are they telling me?

The shape of the vortex reminds me of the whelk shell. Seems like elemental Woman's Kundalini shape. Except heh, heh, how reconcile different directions of cone? Is it as simple as sending and receiving? Or is it two kinds of dishes? I think it is two different kinds. Could be something like breathing and heartbeat. Like inner and outer. Quantum and relative. Whduhyano. Nada.

Somehow I'm imagining pointed up vortices are turning ccw towards the point. I'm just seeing one ... voice freaks out and I remember feeling that it was going to tip to the side and not align ... no, it's OK. Now I align my cone with that. Aligning cone. Do I have to attract it? I've got green shoots coming out of my mouth. Attracts a hovercraft. No, don't turn. You don't have to look, I'm talking to you. Just align with my cone. I'll tell you I discovered Woman's Kundalini. Thank you.

whoaa, omygosh. I'm wearing it. I'm a walking vortex. Wide at the bottom. whysint (?) to turn it clockwise. But there's an inner CCW. Omigod. I'm the outer and the inner goes the other way. Wow. Wow. Earth loves it too. Earth connects. Look it's like music. I point with pole at the dark levels, like notes on the trees and sing them. Song of the burn marks. Song of the flame. Flame song. repeated. rain song repeated. rain gong. rain song. song gong. bi ba bi ba. rain song flame song. (up down rhythm) Oh lichen, come into my dream. lichen and wiregrass.

This vortex seems to be like tlulrn truck furry? I guess it does ressemble a snake male and female. Is it just a polarity? I think it's a new assemblage point. I must say I do not know if this is completely personal or if it is of any interest to anybody else. Wow, the coil does have like a snake skin to it. With patterns. Hexagonal and round. Orange black. Like the towhee colors. Or is that just the color scheme most imprinted on my mind ?

I feel like I've been cloved? Do I have to reenergize this? Is it a trap?

Feels like when I walk, I'm empowering the turn. I could call it a turn. Not an intern. It's what it does. turn and return. Energizing coil, cone, conecoil. Looks like it rises and falls in waves. Constantly circulating.

I wonder if it's not wise to do kundalini all the time. Should it be a meditative experience? Only when sitting and safe? Is this wearing me out walking because of overload? I'm putting too much of my energy into it. I need to know how to stop this? Do I have to retract the cone? retract the ray of the hood. Put the drop back in the pineal. I don't want to mix with walking. it is one thing getting info. It is another thing practicing. I don't seem to feel any better now that I've done that. More. Next


Previous Glyph is the right word for what I'm seeing with the Carolyoga Woman's Kundalini cone. In Unicode the glyph is the form of the character. The character is the abstract meaning of the glyph. More Next


previous Shocked to see trails winding around the cone from top down and to the right. Kind of like DNA coils. Also going the other way. First thought was that this path was slower, for slower signals. Not sure of the order of what follows, whether it was the myriad of graphics paths, turning into plant vines, green sprouting and flowers, or starting to weave like a fish basket. It seems to be sort of an earth garden or environment. The original 13 or so rays zinging with communications. Seeing drops arising along the rays. More Next


I made up and down arrows to follow threads of thought in the log.

previousVision of star at cone origin Tuned into the cone and there at the top was a star. As if at a costume party, transforming the witch into a fairy. Then it goes blink blink into different icons. I realized the star is just a pictograph for graphic messages coming. They are traveling down the rays of the cone.

I'm getting graphic language, I need a universal translator or transcriber or image processor. No matter what insight I get on this stuff, I get something else. Then I'm on another quest.

Now I have to wonder, am I seeing pictographs because that's the kind of language I prefer? Or whatever's coming in, it is their preferred mode. In investigating do want it to be different? When looking into it, will it start to adapt to what seems difficult? Should I just attune to what I wasn't expecting? I don't know what I was expecting. I just began to make contact. But I didn't see how I was sending out. I was receiving in drops and sending out in vibes. But I don't know how to talk vibes, so I don't know what I was saying. So do I need a vibe translator? Or an image translator? Or do I want to talk and get back in talk in English?

Seems like what I intend, am conscious of, am trying to do, is what I'm going to achieve. What comes to mind is Photoshop. It is the best original graphics format. It has the highest resolution. It has the best possibilities of anything I would send it to. Or for myself to look at on my screen. And also to fit my speech. I think it's important to send in the highest resolution. So seems like what is under vibes, what I perceive as vibes would be the highest res. There's also the question of power. Hi res would be more trouble in every way. Transmission. So maybe I need to get a better translator. Receiver. So many variables in multi-universe, multi-D communications. But just give it up and realize, this is what your cells do all the time. Your body does all the time. This is what everybody does all the time. It's just your language that you're trying to translate it into. So you can communicate with other people. More. next


Struggling with my computer workstation setup. Not to speak of everything else around it. But my world view is the most important. Got up feeling I was a co-creator of reality. Where do things come from? It feels like everything is consciousness and the art of feeling things out. So as a wave in consciousness that is evolving, I'm at a position of feeling out what elements are available to creation. What resources are there? Asking that question leads to an aroused what-Pat-Carlyle-calls-a body scan. That question is not a mind or heart or gut stimulator. It addresses the interface of this consciousness unit (assuming that I represent anything or something uniquely or seemingly identifiable since it feels like it).

The answer is not discrete parcels of thought. It is rather After Effects lessening of the T, transparentizer as in opaci-T-y, as a shortcut for a feeling of revealing an ongoing process in which I'm participating with no notion of boundaries. But with a sense this is the most important act in my "About" box. Yes, I am defining myself or finding myself defined by media.

previous 2017 Solstice hood with coneFor days or daze I'm seeing the hemispherically curved rays of the 2017 Solstice hood with respect to a first-envisioned cone of straight rays. I think the head-oriented end open circle of rays were psychically related to or aligned with the circle of drops or the black hole center focus of the hood. But initially perceived as action from around my head aura back up to a point behind and up from my head along the axis of the finger pointing to the hood center axis. Along the evolutionary way, which I experience in time, ... sentence unfinished because of bodily needs taking precedent over verbal expression.

That is, texting. While away, experiencing hood/cone alternating frequency of views. Flash flash flash flash ... flash. Just like spiritual vs material worlds they seem discrete and yet simultaneously present if not singled out. But I do think the focus of the cone point is beyond hood and hood gesture. I think it is the ACK point of transmission. I think the hood is receiving. Or that's how it seems at this moment. Can I do art of the two together? I can try. Has to be in Photoshop I guess. Would it be more layers in the 3D art of hood? Where is that on my computer system?

Any act requires decision that then impinges upon and contributes to every other act so there is this terror of the moment. The responsibility usually never fully understood in its ramifications.

I was thinking conehead, looked it up and realized no, is not the head. Is cone energy or something. Suddenly realized it has a triangular bounding box that could contain a drop. It is a stylized angular definition of drop. Maybe a drop frame or movement streak pattern. Drop up and out? Drop outward bound? More. next


conepreviousFor several days, whenever I tune in, I get the cone, long tapering cone that points back where my fingers are pointing behind above my skull. At first it was clear that the round arcs of the helmet were flung straight back up from the black hole. Just now it seems that both could be true. The focus point is so pin-pointed. A witches hat describes the shape but that really doesn't match up with the arcs.

I don't know what to do with this imaging. The hood itself could transform to close the circle to a hat brim skull circumference, the rays straighten out and reach up the the focusing fingers. That design is alternative to the two separate overlapping forms. In a way it feels like I'm trying out different arrangements or conformations in a creative evolution design. Morenext.

Another interesting thing is how I sat last night at ECMS meditation. On the edge of intensity. But I do recall a pink kind of flare, like a gesture up a waterfall that was like a flowing tai chi energy. Happening just before *bing**, the closing three bells.


Loving drinking my morning glass of water. Thinking basically it's DNA meets my DNA, the cells know ancestry at every moment. (Note that I have just been reading the results of my relatives' DNA from Ancestry.com and 23andme.com.) There is living participation with this knowledge.

I actually today am doing what I love to do. Exploring new computer adventures in way I want to, on way to where I want to go. Setbacks here I know can be overcome. And this computer is very fun to use. I must next somehow get out of cloud. Or clutches of Adobe. To experiment with using CC software on my own terms. Having feeling that using this software is like cutting edge of history. In the sense that I enjoyed learning history through art history. Now I'm enjoying current life on earth through art on the computer. We wish to be global, peaceful, loving, communicative, supportive, creative, etc. But we need to do this through channels, dependencies, alliances, saying yes to things we don't fully understand, pay for what might be beyond our resources, try things that might go ahead or completely be astray, wasting our precious time. Each turn demands a new decision. No option to say no to them all. Disaster to always saying yes. Quandary and uncertainties at every moment.

Wow there is a third partner in lichens, a fungus that is between the fungus and the alga already discovered.


previous Thinking about how vibes travel from drop to wOs (wholeOOsphere) and the gathered reply from wOs to drop. For return I just saw the black hole halo starting at a point at the bottom of the drop and then traveling up the girth of the drop in widening rings and gradually tapering to the point of disappearance at the top. Fetching.

Strange, I just looked at the Staten Island series of paintings from around 1970. The livelies were on my mind as preview of drop to wOs. Looking at it now, I think it was study for incoming sensations, traveling, winding spirally up to brain cell. Had not thought how it resembles DNA coil. But I don't remember why there were two and what the orange and blue represent.

About vibes, show the pattern emanating from drop bottom, flinging through space to hit wOs. Would make more sense to have it hit a square, since one vibe pattern is square? Hmm. Does it deliver a pent? Five rotated square vibe patterns? I know so little about this thing that today's visual has has to be poetic suggestion. Is not factual documentation. Important features to video vibes are: 1) drop to wOs, 2) delivery within wOs, 3) response from wOs to drop. Could have vibes traveling in wavy lines like livelies. At the hit they trigger the color accident graphic (rosy magenta background with rainboid highlit drops). Vibes within wOs are straight lines. More next


previousGetting feeling I need EIEnor, that is wholeOOspheres, in here. I have no idea how drops fit with them. Did I get that during eclipse? It must be something about the interface between array and figure.

Basic mission: how do drops relate to wholeOOpen? One thought coming over here was: five drops. coalesce into one. Another thought was a drop morphs into one. But there must be something else. Which may be revealed to me on this walk.

Drop meets wOs (wholeOOsphere)I got a fantastic vision and took pains to detail it to remember. Puzzling over relating drops to brain cells. Saw a drop hit a pentagon. Splat into info vibes on impact. Wow. Stream was coming from behind right shoulder (upper right quadrant) to impact slightly looking down at farther wholeOOpen in lower left quadrant. Seems that one drop could then be known by all other 11 pents (just had a freak out over inconsistency that info vibes coming to pents when usually they form on square faces. Also I saw them going to 6 of one brain cell then to all the others. But it is the pents that are connected. Here I thought was what was a clear and definitive vision is muddled.) In general, one drop to one face on EIEnor is shared by whole including five cells. The vision answered the question of how it gets stored (like any brain cell, in memory banks, beads.) and eventually when all five cells synergize response it can be gathered. Didn't say how gathered, did it?

One part of the vision is that the computer creativity of the rose-magenta background and the flashy colors around the drop colors are triggered when drop hits. Like a firework or boom of rosiness and flashes of bright colors to explode impact.

Then there's the question, how does it merge with what the brain cell had to start with. Every part I get opens up to a deeper question. I never get there. Is that what life is supposed to be like, this sequential adventure. Wholeo Dome closed up, got done and people like that. Brain insights are like one little panel in Wholeo Dome. Nobody can see the conglomerate.

Note that pents are the parts that connect to each brain cell. I assume that each solid communicates with its parts, as a whole, even though those parts are separated in visual space. So each brain cell is a whole, even though its sides don't appear to touch. Same with the dodecahedron. Note I still don't have any functioning for the icosahedron, which is the light muscle (or plural).

Later I got the sense that the gathered reply might go up the stem of the drop to the point. Morenext.


Everything I say or do, is oppositely true. Note that I say "forget 'I'" and then I use "I" in every sentence. Appreciate all sides of statements, truths, beliefs, concepts, ideas.

Aside from the question of who "I" is, as far as the body goes, we're all in this together. We're all equal. There is no aspect or part that is unequal. The mic goes to the part that has the most important thing to say. When you sit to do hip yoga. Go open mic. Who is saying something? What is it? Is there a more comfortable way to get into the starting pose? Remember to release what is holding back for a stretch. Even when just imagining going to stretch. It is not just the stretched, stretching part. It is the opposite part. So when I lean left, I ask right to let go.

State of me is ecstatic. I can hardly contain my bliss. Don't need to. It is continuous everywhere. Looking for an explanation.


Women's March anniversary. I was a lone woman marcher in Seagrove Beach, FL. We had decided to march tomorrow instead, in sync with Power to the Polls, Nevada. At 10, I put on my sign. Seeing no one, I went to the beach. Saw three small groups of women walking. Were they marching? I walked past big homes, high over the dunes. Suddenly I saw a crack in the land with a stream coming out of it. Amazed at how drawn I am to nature.


previousDuring carolyoga I was feeling the conglomerate of drops under foot. Feeling this was a way to communicate. Communicate with what? But it seemed drop pool launching was happening. And it wasn't time-related or dependent. Instantaneous. Can't remember two-way. A link of some sort. More. next

Last night was remembering the pearl breathing in Light Body in 1980. How I've been building up all my life for this. Wish I had stopped and written at the instant of the practice and awareness of it. It was much richer and full experience than I have managed to grasp in recall.

During meditation at ECMS, one singular time that continues to keep me enthralled. It was a realization and physical experience of limitless expansion. No constraint. Yet at the same time black hole truth. That is I felt that both truths described my reality without contradiction. After just being in this condition, the thought came that this is what it means to accept a paradox. I can't remember ever truly understanding acceptance of a paradox. That is, I often see contradictory truths and accept that they mutually oppose each other. But I've never been able to reconcile the mismatched aspects. Never living it. Visually it was kind of like a morning glory. The widening pool and the dark funneling neck.


Had a multiple personalities experience in kitchen when just done with breakfast prep. Someone saying it is helpful to wash hands more often instead of letting us do it. Sudden feeling that I really am not a single being, I am a team, conglomerate, association. Thinking at the same time that is a dramatization of my tendencies. Also that creativity does it. Thinking Bob Pirsig had it for writing and it got out of control. All points of view about this are correct and OK. Life is not fixed. Truth comes in many forms from many viewpoints. Also was thinking that with awareness and consciousness expansion you do actually work more in expansive time. Future, past and alternate. Thinking of "Mindlessness" as the completing portion with respect to "Mindfulness".

previousDLSP forest walk. When I walked into the woods, I saw all these ghosts of Carolings that have walked in here. Now I'm feeling this drop array blinking like a signal board or something. Like a body brain. I guess this kundalini is either tuning me into more dimensions than I'm used to or it has turned on my creative imagination to give me a story that it could be. Enriching.

Seeing the deer lichen carpeting in the forest as drops. Saw the variegated sparkling and activity that I had sensed in my aura/body, coming the other way. More. next


I think I just figured out how 5 brain cells coordinate in a tesseract. The inner cube is the primary one, the organizer. The six surrounding cells each interface with the central one, which subtracts one cube from the total of six. That sounds good, but I can't see it.

{Rereading this on 3-12 after seeing the movie on 3-11. Today I asked the same question and did think the inner cube would be the organizer. Didn't remember these previous thoughts. Today is seeming to be actually a next step in comprehending wOs. 4 or 5D. Wow. And a way to travel in the mind, which is really shamanic even if in the movie it is scientific. But it is called an "8-cell" so I'm wrong unless there is a deeper understanding.}

Which is real, the concept or the spacial representation of it? Usually I need both. I'm thinking that five brain cells separately are 30 faces. When they congeal in process or practice of 5D, their faces do not look like or function like separate cubes. That's the point. I feel like I'm making visible some invisible text that has already been written. Time definitely gets strange in tessering. OK in the tesseract each cube now has 5 faces {not}. There are six cells for a total of 30 faces {not}. There is an inner cube interface they share and an outer cube interface they share {not}. Somehow, is this sharply diverging from my beloved Bucky and his triangles? What I can't see is the interim. I can't make a movie of how they migrate, which is so clear in the EIEnor.

Link of the MathWorld description to hypercube emphasizes that the cubicly picture is how it looks in 3d. They say it has 8 cubes, counting the inner and the outer. They say there are 24 squares. {24 squares would be 4 cubes, so clearly they are counting some sides more than once. Of course when two cubes are side by side, they each have a side, just touching.} The dual of the tesseract is the 16-Cell, which is all triangles. Also called a hyperoctahedron or hexadecachoron. Made of 16 tetrahedra. TODO: get sci-fi novel Factoring Humanity by Robert J. Sawyer. {Got it as Kindle doc on 3-12.} The hypercube initially exists unfolded as a series of connected 3-d cubes, Maybe not, "page 92 has a diagram of a hypercube. This is a real mathematical object which is to a cube what a cube is to a square. In particular, it is what you get by taking a row of four cubes, sticking four more on the four visible sides of the second one and then identifying all of the remaining sides by `folding it' up. This object can only be embedded into spaces of dimension greater than four so it is not something we can really see in our daily experience."


Finished re-reading A Wrinkle In Time. " Tessering" is to travel in time or space with the concept of a Tesseract which is a 5D object. Contrary to what I thought, the book doesn't detail it. Just said that Father didn't tesser right, when doing it for the government. Why would one travel with a temporal/spacial dimensional concept? Anyway the idea that love is what keeps us from evil is of course a common generalization. But maybe is how people interpret evolutionary intensity, like has happened to me twice at ECMS.

Doing some searching, found out that the movie Interstellar that I stalked on TV last year has time/space travel through tesseract and love is key, just like wrinkle. The Wolfram Research/MathWorld description of Tesseract has a list of movies where it appears.


previousThis morning really love yesterday's song. I feel at the start needs some complexity to lead in from the multiplicity of the world to the singularity of the flows. I'm hearing the Zen bell thread, maybe in and out of this meditation. Also a sharp sound. Yesterday I got it by drumming on a glass with some water in it with the tea bag squeezer.

This could be the sound for the whole movie. Starting on the forest porch, raising arms, visualizing hood, zooming out as channels form and drops flow down. Most movies we see are team works, symphonic. Individual's vision is a different art form. Like a solo? This movie can just be sound sometimes. And just be still sometimes. And just be moving sometimes. To zoom into its components. Aside from the end, just sound and no sound, could there be no sound somewhere within? I see that when emphasize the black hole. Which strangely enough I'm seeing as transportation.

Here's a sequence idea. The black hole glows. 2s. Rays of hood gradually draw down to form cap. 2s. Array of drops in environment somehow gathered into black hole, the wholeo galaxy prototype. 2s. Drops appear at ends of rays. Enlarge dropping down to figure. 2s. Then to pool. 10s total start. This is all without setting or figure.

Another sequence idea. Start with 2s of forest with moving fog. Figure raises hands and stops where hands directly above black hole. At this point the black hole begins to glow, the person and background fade. From now on we are in the dark or a greatly dimmed down version until streaming figure arises. Morenext.


previousI don't like the music I hear. Somehow the beat, frequency and words are not matching my experience. Just sang it. Seems to invite changing speeds.

Also need more drops in space. Some bigger up front. Some smaller, receding. In music (music?) punctuation/time with the emphasis changes. All I saw was drops accumulating and doing their own rhythm at the foot. Does patina fish tail appear slowly? I should make of movie of drawing it. I see the cross hatching lines appearing in rhythm with the beat. Oh I wish the dropping strands could waver as kelp forest. Morenext.


previous It is one of those wake-up-way-too-early-but-so-excited-about-publishing-day-that-I-can't-go-back-to-sleep days. 3:20am. I am thinking pearl step and wondering how kundalini fits with that. So similar. It is like Leo coming in to life like a Lion and going out like a Buffalo. Like an evolving representation, that is.

Could a drop be a dynamic pearl? It looks like it. It is directional and implies movement, even time. Whereas a pearl is still. Morenext.


Reading a Noosphere message from Time is Art people, I feel hardly any resonance beyond the feeling that people's consciousness of the noosphere is limited. I can't get the frequency and time arguments or see what a calendar has to do with it. Also can't see a divine plan or time lords. Not part of my awareness.

previousWalking in the forest, doing pearl-step, pearl-pearl-step in word and tone. At one point it seemed like the streams of drops flared up like a skirt or tent. Near to that time I had a sense I could leave this body for that one. This body would drop down dead and I would soar off separately, yet with all aspects of that completely unknown.

I have integrated Woman's Kundalini hand position and streaming visualization into Carolyoga. Morenext


previousI'm having Woman's Kundalini vision++. The drops flow down, reminding me of the strange jellyfish with illumination in the deep of the ocean. Drops of light finding a dark woman body I don't know well. Rather mermaid-like. The drops running in meridians, forming at the base, below feet one drop that is a reservoir. The dark body has the features of flowing over breasts and pregnant belly, rather like those ancient swelling neolithic goddess figures.

I don't know if the kundalini is response to the serpent power arousal or if it is an arousal that is a drop power arousal in the other direction. I don't know how much of the kundalini culture and description can be adapted to this new energy discovery. Am I discovering or exploring? OK, both work. For example, when Hiram Bingham was exploring in Peru, he found Machu Picchu that had existed all along. But he discovered it for tourists and enabled new uses. I don't know if my finding these structures is analogous to that. I did put it in mystical camping at a ritual time so haven't found it as carolyoga yet. But it feels like it is going there. This drop becoming like earth pool. Also related to the lightness I've been feeling. Often I feel dance-like in movement and gravity-free.

Mermaid fish-fin feet stir pool to access the earth currents. Of inner pool. Making dark body a conductor. This connects into deep belonging like being a member of a contributory crew to some aspect of evolution not part of my awareness previously. Like a dark landscape of similar operations conducted by others. Drops up more like flowers with petals 4 or five that don't seem to impede the drop flow like it would in air against gravity. The petals seem to carve or maybe touch channel edges on and in arising. Rose gold, galaxy green and spirit blue. Channel edges like a third rail for electric-powered train. But more like the edges of a tube, so all the petal edges conducting. Like hot-air balloons in profile.

I need to get images of the process in the movie that I can't see without internet. Next I'll have that and the completion of the circuit in stills. Seems like I have new eyes and action in the dark. Or a dark.

Our evolution is not only to go to Mars, but to create new worlds stemming from this consensus 3D world but seemingly in the dark, not dependent on sunlight to be seen, with its own inner illumination. Not dependent on gravity to cohere. Having it's own inner energy forming abilities. Not sure about time. Or how relates to brain expansion or Elobeing. Morenext.


Going through the file folders of Wholeo Dome stuff looking for things to send to The Farm glass people. Have to admit to a weighty impression of futility. Nailing it were the criticisms from book publishing companies and potential Wholeo Dome locations. Statements like: not on our topic, need financing, not sketchy enough for this, not professional enough for that, finer lines. Then there were the failed nibbles, the people who tried to promote Wholeo and my books for me. Some big names and institutions approached and receded. I am of two minds about it. One I know that Pirsig tried harder to promote his book than I did, approached more publishers before finally getting support. I can see my publishing and even my artwork now are just one long try at being a successful artist with pretty much the same message. Is what keeps me going simply the value to me? Yes. Two in spite of any efforts I make to help The Farm resurrect Wholeo Dome, I haven't much hope.


previousDoes the spirit coil pick up the drops from the cap? Are the drops related to cosmic juices? Where does this cap go from here? Just saw that it over-arched the meditation group. Drops to all. Did I write that I saw it also going to each cell, tiny. Morenext.

Seems like I'm seeing analogous things. Like the assertion that you are God. For me that doesn't work but the idea that everything is the whole from a certain perspective. Not in any way separate, just able to provide a different viewpoint to awareness. I can put this on wholeo.net to become a node in a net of peace. Started looking at this stuff, good rhythm, good movement: School of Movement videos


I got sucked into the Facebook whirlpool. Whitney asked for a yin resolution. What am I resolving to accept? I said the fleeting nature of plans. When future meets present and they are widely different, laugh. Have I been doing that? Can I do it better? We shall see. Or we won't see. Can we hope to see? If we don't will we know it?

Mostly intensity in meditation. Had a non-corporeal experience, kind of like the way I can see part of my nose, but it is transparent. This was more non-spacial. Like I could see my body but not be a part of it's weight or positioning. Felt somewhat dissociated but also levitated. I explored the ring of meditators somehow. Grateful for it.

PreviousWoman's kundalini appeared. Like a hood of stars. It is so mystical I just am in awe of it. Perplexed because here I am describing parts of it, features of it but not enough to establish it. More next.

During meditation intensity was building up with the feeling of how can this be any more so? Ding, the ending bell rang. It felt like my inner core intensity and the outer intensity of sound were continuous and causally related. Like hitting the ground and the mercury pressure rises up the shaft and rings the bell.

Later one of the 4 women in the small group that had shared that we all had experienced body scan before in various ways came up to me. She said "I want to share my perception of your warm strong aura and loving feelings". I said it is a wonderful group of people or I love group meditation. I thought that thanking her would be an ego-driven response, as though I tried to exude, or valued being more loving than others. My feeling was, no it is intensity. My experience is just a degree of being burningly intense. No other descriptors.


previousAbout Woman's Kundalini. Call it channeling. Seeing the two hands as double risen snake heads. Let's call it Kundalini++. How can I photograph the two hands the way I see them with fingers pointed to eyes? The two palms cupped. A Visionary Meditation page has a hand position that is a precursor to this. Mosque-top thumbs. There I have the knuckles and palms overlapped to cup crystalline earth. I'm getting the feeling that Womans kundalini remains risen. Does not have to be repeatedly energized from below. Cap can be Geome cupped.

Drop from arrayReading the text I am so moved. The white orbs that remind me of devas of Peru now remind me of the flying drops I saw with respect to drops on cap. I have a better name for it: kundalini cap. The shape is expanded cap as in head covering. The only association that is problematic is that a "cap" often encloses and stops something within. Whereas this channels from without.

I'm learning so much today. What can I possibly publish? I did not record in journal when I saw drops as an array. How about a graphic of my drawing over the water drops on the screen on the retreat? Well as it turned out in Photoshop, the screen did not get in. Dissolve blending did a lot for the background. I did get the feeling of a flying radiant-drop. Morenext.


Having so many crashes of computer when working on video that I stopped and researched exactly what new iMac Pro I should order. I hope throwing thousands of dollars cures this problem.


I've considered following 7 Days of Rest, a global internet project. Considered joining Panama City Pagans. Did not go on any of the first-day hikes I knew were happening. About all I've done is what is almost frame-by-frame progress on my woman kundalini video. At night I did brave the freezing cold to get a picture of the full moon with the constellation Orion and the star Sirius.


Trying to describe my web work to someone. I find that I present the same vagueness that so disturbs me about the word "God". When I say "kundalini" to someone it might not only be unfamiliar to them, it is incredibly difficult for me to pin down. It is easy to get a limited description which would not relate to my use of it. I feel like I fell off a cliff. I don't know anything else to do except climb back up and continue my personal journey. Many times I have not understood aspects of my guidance for years after I got and followed it.


previous With respect to the wakeup meditation vision of 12-21, searching for kundalini in wholeo.net, an ad came up at the top of the search results page. emergingsciences.org/kundalini-experimental-project/ says kundalini is the evolutionary energy residing in the human body. Later they say it is a mechanism linking the activity of the reproductive system and the brain. Pranayama stimulates the center at the base of the spine near the sex organs. My vision indicates a separate process. Not linked to sex organs or chakras or flow charts of ancient systems. Reading 2017-11-02 web log, says kundalini was sphere expansion.

Working on the solstice vision art. Have sort of cap with clumsy drops so far. Seems there might be a small elliptical oval at the top, from which exude the drops of nectar that flow down the ribs and replenish the end drops. They do not fall but fade and so are renewed by the flow. Each rib different timing so all drops not falling at once. Still don't have a description of function, duration, occasion and so on. That is, don't know much about it. Kundalini is an orgasmic fountain increase in awareness. This is more like a thinking cap.

During yoga got a hand position for activating or channeling the woman kundalini. Tried to get some photos of one arm. The backs of the straightened fingers from knuckles down are pressed together. Both arms are fully raised and stretched back so fingers are pointing at the cap and thus down to the bald spot on the head. This is like at the top of the head but toward the back 3 or 4", matched up with the center of the tilted cap. Thumbs are together pointing back. I guess I need a tripod setup and movie to try to visualize it.

It is an evolution of the hand position for visionary meditation. Morenext.


Just caught an anomaly with respect to Carolyoga Noosphere and wholeOOsphereing. Previously it was five brain cells expanding. Then I experienced all cells expanding as shown at the top of the page. I don't remember having had guidance that cells also have cube structure. Am I making some assumption that is invalid?


previousI can't find the pic I remember from an old journal entry. It is of my head with a shape like a colander inverted over my head, maybe a hemisphere about 3" from my skull all around. Coming over my eyes, through mid-ears, just above hairline in back. It is dotted or dashed lines radiating from the center of the top of the hemisphere. At the end of each line is a drop or droplet. The main reason I wanted to find it is to read the guidance that came with it. Now writing this, I see a form with drops or pearls set into the line. Spaced 2" apart. This expanded skull cap may serve as antenna. Something like a crown for European royalty. Or is it related to five brain cell coordination. There are at least 12 strands. Morenext.

I feel like I could die any minute. I feel like my art is so important the whole world should know about it, see it, understand where it is coming from and where it is going. On the other hand there is an equally strong feeling that the purpose of this adventure is for me to follow the threads, for me to see it. It is not about fixing the insights into matter or needing to be seen by anyone else.


I was doing a lot of mind-wandering last night. Alternated with pure intensity of being. There were a few powerful visions. One was of EIEnor with wholeopens, a large one in the middle of the room, while smaller ones poured forth as in my graphic of the week. Suddenly I felt like a mentor or way-shower where cells all around were getting it. Was it even molecules of stuff? Like everything coming into this greater organization of matter?


For the first day of this mini-retreat see 2017-12-20. This morning I slept through the alarm and missed synchronized birthday solstice meditation with my daughter. She did better for both of us, writing:

Happy Birthday Caroling, such a beautiful spirit I am so blessed to be connected to! Happy Winter Solstice! It may be the darkest moment but I feel the lightest. I am at this time "Lizzie Magenta" and I bring a sparkly pink Magic that seasons the space between atoms, brings things together and allows for the best possible outcome to happen. It is about relaxing, straightening out, sitting up straight, breathing in deeply, being warm and feeling connected. It is an authentic, it is an intimate, it is opened up! As Lizzie Magenta I am heading into a year of new possibilities, operating at a new frequency and sense of understanding. I am standing on a bedrock of faith that "everything is going to be OK" and that I am bringing value and that I am here because I am supposed to be. I am here for cookies and hugs and I give them too. There are so many gifts to open and we can do it together! Amen Ache!!!! The boys got up without protest and we said a prayer for you. Here are individual Birthday wishes from the boys: Hans: Stay healthy! Max: Have a GREAT day! Leo: Have fun today!

I did meditate and wrote:

Lizzie Magenta I’m with you between atoms. Thank you for the gift of connecting the colors of my day. Meditating solstice birthday with my birthed one made it clear that the radiant one is a choice. Ongoing for me now this morning. I am out of words but full of {heart symbol}.

Oh yes and it (serpent power) is not kundalini for an evolving female. There is a radiant source like a hair drier hood of sparks to be attended. Morenext.

I'm so thrilled that my stellar daughter can access her mistical mystical queen self. She found Lizzie Magenta. For me those words have instant meanings, not sure if is true for her. Arrow. For me how quizzically ironic that the archer of Sagittarius arrow of alignment is what it is all, all, all, about. But Lizzie is what Mel first said was not her name, after he had named her Elizabeth. Magenta for me is the queen color, no the beyond color that is the continuum of the color wheel, that connects ultra violet blue with ultra infra red orange ness. The ultimate between. And it is ironically true of being mixed. Divine mediator.

From the slightly rosier fog in the SE, I guessed sunrise direction about 6:40AM CST.

Solstice meditation was aligned, balanced, tuned in. I must have been profoundly immersed because my words on video are muffled and there is no memory. Try to keep this alignment for one year. When I come back and all is the same. Just coming in costume.

At night I conducted the Emerald Coast Meditation Society meeting.

I had forgotten the solar-powered lantern to act as the sun but came up with a better metaphor. Our circle was the earth. The fountain out in the courtyard was the sun and the north pole was the galactic center. The alignment was important for me with opened emotions of joy and success vs out of control situation. Writing this it seems that I can control the galaxy. Nothing is out of my control. That I don't understand. But I did become aware when talking about a central alignment that my feelings are OK but I don't have to be identified with them. Funny, during the day after I realized that kind of truth, all the expressions of wishing good things for people seemed so pointless. Feelings are what people have and it doesn't matter the degree of things you like about them. What matters is the completeness of humanness you are able to be, authentically, and yet not be identified with them. If not identified, then what, MS mind guru. Not. Yaani said she liked hearing how I came to Zen. Cindi was so complementary about liking to listen to me talk. How I pick just the right word. A new woman said she would not have come here if she had not been attracted by the ECMS online. That makes it clear that the online outreach is important. At least for one woman.

Quarter Days

Some of these might appear chronologically if there are relevant comments. Checking dates here: http://aa.usno.navy.mil/data/docs/EarthSeasons.php

2018-03-20 Advance Equinox or March equinox - March 20 at 16:15 GMT (March 20 at 11:15AM CDT on Tuesday).

2018-06-21 Inner Solstice - June 21 at 10:07 GMT (June 21 5:07AM CDT on Thursday)

2018-07-25 Day out of Time - July 25. Day Out of Time on Wednesday.

2018-09-22 Follow Equinox or September equinox - September 23 at 1:54 GMT (Sept. 22 at 8:54PM CDT on Saturday) International Day of Peace

2018-12-21 Outer Solstice or December solstice - December 21 at 22:22 GMT (4:22PM CST on Friday, day before new moon).

Sun raying solstice from galactic center to you

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